>>79814090
>I made 2 more peanut butter toasts for lunch.
That's good. And very tasty.
>a little nervous eating them
That's fair, but it will be okay, you'll be fine.
>I cant follow because of school stuff
Oh that's dumb and annoying.
>tempting to just starve myself
I dot think you should do that friend, just eat what you'd normally eat.
>but I know its not good to do that
Your very smart ^^.

>>79814155
Hey anon, I don't like my body either, but it's best to try to accept it and know your a good person and your body is probably also good. And that is awful cycle to have, try to cut less and stay safe.>>79814155
too real :<

>>79814318
>but it will be okay, you'll be fine
thanks for you the reassurance, you're a very kind person <3
>>79814318
>dumb and annoying.
yeah it sucks, visiting my grandma is something I really value a lot but now I'm stuck with my dad >:(I was happy last year. 2025?>>79814655
>thanks for you the reassurance, you're a very kind person <3
Thanks. I try to be.
>visiting my grandma is something I really value
That's very sweet, and really sucks you can't visit her now :/, so stupid how much school stuff is at the end of the year.

>>79815139
Hopefully you can be happy soon!>How are you doing today?
Pretty good, I crying a couple hours ago because my boyfriend was talking to someone else and had a delusional thought around
>Any plans for today?
going over to my boyfriend
>When was the last time you hurt yourself?
3 weeks ago? Not really officially, did it with the razor my boyfriend uses for leg shaving and stopped bleeding right after. Officially cutting with blades and all, almost 2 years ago
>Why did you hurt yourself?
Felt too big for my boyfriend
>Is there anything bothering you right now?
My boyfriend talking to other people>>79815203

you're kind. i do think i can get there. but been tough times recently, sometimes feels like first-world problems and i almost imposter-syndrome myself into feeling worse.
"my pain isn't valid because it's not the worst pain in the world"
clearly not true but reasoning isn't always on the starting lineup

>>79815238

maybe a little reminiscent of my day. my girlfriend and I go to different schools (locally) and she's not good at texting me. so i start cycling through all those paranoid thoughts. but tbf to these delusions, things have been rough between us lately already. but i will get to see her tonight.>>79813803
>>79814090
i suppose i was just feeling extra extra bad about my appearance and was feeling quite bad comparing myself to other people. i managed to get through the night and not self harm but it was a little hard desu
now im at work so i won't have to worry about it for an extra 10 hours so that's a plus I guess
how are your mornings going? I hope it's great :)Hey guys im not doing too great. Thats all I'll sayThread finally died it seems. New picture at least of the top lad hoon ( literally me ). Weathers getting colder so try not to catch your death and all. Hope all of you are excited and ready for christmas as it is arguably started about now. Have a good day and all you lot deserve it and things always get better.I cut again (one of them didn't count though because there was too much space between two cuts and I had to urge fill in the space)

dad dragged me out for dinner at some shitty "western food" (perceived by southeast asians) stall. Literally everything on the menu was high calorie. I ordered a chicken burger. It sucked. I "wasted" my calorie allowance on shitty food. So I cut myself to feel better. I don't know why I'm like this. I thought I was supposed to be recovering

>>79815139
hope 2025 will be good to you and all of us :>

>>79815203
>stupid how much school stuff is at the end of the year
yeah :/

>>79815238
hope things work out between you and your boyfriend

>>79815571
hey chev, sorry to hear that :< Hope you feel better soon :3

>>79815498
>managed to get through the night and not self harm
proud of you for managing to pull through :>
>im at work so i won't have to worry about it for an extra 10 hours
work can be a good source of distraction for better or worse ^^'
>how are your mornings going? I hope it's great :)
as you can see its not going well :<

>>79815575
thanks for your kind words anon, and merry christmas to you :>overthinking fucking sucks

>>79811722
>are you going to seek treatment?
not sure desu
it is probably not like full on depression and something more mild that i just think is more significant than it is
i will just try to get through it while remaining sane
>not good
at least sleep is nice, i like sleeping
>don't leave us on a cliffhanger
ye i wont, im not one to do something like that
even if i dont post here im fine nd will come back eventually
>you're welcome to be as miserable as you want
i know but i still feel bad for it
it is my misery and im the one who deserves to bear it
even if what im feeling is irrational and i know it is irrational i just cant help it
>Hiw was your day today
well yesterday i went by the bank to get some stuff done but they needed some extra papers i didnt have so i will go again next week prolly
other than that i was just asleep for a lot of the time
for today i will go out with some friends from school and fuck around in an abandoned building probably
so that might be fun
wbu cat?

>>79811850
heya gator missed u too
it is alright dont worry about me
>I don't think your dragging anyone down
well, maybe truly im not and im just delusional but i just feel like i am
being a miserable cunt all the time and being annoying doesnt help much against dragging them down

just
idk
weird situation i am in
>no one minds
i do :3

>>79815687
>Western food
yeah sounds like something that most likely wont be very good

also remember, all cuts count :3
i decided to try and change from razor to box cutter and i did a cut that was objectively buch bigger and deeper than any i have done before and it didnt even bleed, or hurt (which those two are like the whole point), you could say it didnt count but it sure is on my thigh right now>>79815858
>get through it while remaining sane
cheering you on :> To me at this point whether I'm depressed or not doesn't really matter anymore. I've had the typical symptoms of depression since high school but mental health(care) awareness here is so non existant that I probably can't do anything about it anyways and all I can do is just live with it
>fuck around in an abandoned building probably
that sounds pretty fun :D I've tried that a few times when I was a kid and my local residences wasn't fully occupied yet but eventually all the houses got occupied and I've never went urban exploring ever since
>im just delusional
really relatable, I feel this all the time with other people (classmates) as well. Its like, they probably don't want anything to do with me right? But they asked me why I never join them for lunch? But maybe its because they know I'll decline anyways so no harm in asking so that I won't feel like they're ignoring me. But why would they, I'm the one who's constantly avoiding my classmates, not them avoiding me. But maybe they don't have to, because I already avoid them.They probably also don;t believe me when I tell them I'm out of state at my grandma's everytime they ask me out to hang out right? I wonder if they believe the cuts on my arm were from playing with cats, only one person ever mentioned them. They probably know right? Did they tell everyone else in the class? Do I want everyone to know? Maybe they'll stop talking to me out of sympathy for once if they knew right? When in reality its probably all in my head. Or is it all in my head? What if its all true and I'm just telling myself that to cope about being such a loser?went a little unhinged but I felt like it was a waste if I typed all of that out in frustration and end up deleting everything

>>79815858
>yeah sounds like something that most likely wont be very good
thing is, there's absolutely good and authentic "western food" out there but my dad just genuinely sucks at distinguishing between good food, to him as long as its expensive its good. There's a ton of western food out there that charge high prices because most people here just don't know any better, to people its like hey its exotic white people food right of course its more expensive. Like no, thats literally just a slab of unseasoned deep fried chicken served with cold french fries and canned sauce
>all cuts count :3
aaa. Perhaps physically, but mentally they don't if I was trying to fill out the empty space :L
>razor to box cutter
which is sharper? I've never even seen a razor irl before because people here just don't use them and we call box cutters "penknives".
>on my thigh right now
oww :< Make sure you get yourself patched up

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